broken dreams.

everyone has those broken dreams

where people said they could do something and that they believed in them.

then it happens

you hear them talking about you saying your not that good or that they hate you.

they lied.

they broke your dreams

and then you react


by making mistakes out of rage

breaking things 

throwing stuff

going crazy

people dont understand what teens go through

theres all this extra pressure

we need to be good



get good grades 

maintain a social life

do choirs

put up with so much

but no on understands where a person can break

breaking points.

everywhere and when you hit one 

it just gets worse.



singing is my just apart of me.

im starting a youtube channel with my bff. we both sing. we dont care how badly we do we just want to do something that we love. if you dont like it dont hate on us. we have feelings we get hurt. so if you have something rude to say keep it to your self. no one wants to hear you. being a bully just sucks. i was a bit of a bully to some people but i learned how to shut my mouth and respect people. love those you know cause they were lucky to meet you and have a chance to get to know you.

show your true colors

everyone has colors some of them aren’t as true as others but its the way you chose to express yourself. i died my hair orange today to show my differences. im not the same as anyone out there. no one is. show your true colors. 


sorry about the pictures if they suck



people make mistakes and sometimes it drives people they love away. i know because i screwed up dearly with two of my closest friends and now i dont know how to make it up to them. but im going to keep trying untill they both give me another chance. i didnt mean to hurt them but the pain from the bulling and the hate i was getting and the pressure to be perfect became to much. i threw and broke my phone then i ruined two friendships. im going to try as hard as i can to make it up to the two people i use to be supper close to and im not going to stop until we can at least talk about things and be civil. 

i want my friends back and i will get them back. im not losing two of the most important people in my life to mistakes i made due to a break down when we should be thicker than butter. we should be three peas in a pod. not burning bridges. so if they are reading this please give me a second chance to prove to you that im not some bitch who is going to hurt you again. i just want my friends back. 



where were you

where were you when i needed you the most?
where were you when i was falling apart?
where were you when i was losing my self?
where were you when i was breaking inside?
where were you when i couldn’t take it anymore?
where were you when i took all the pain away?

tell me where were you when i needed you the most?

sweet lullaby


sweet lullaby

you heard me cry

you told me everything was alright

I’ve heard you say so many things before today

most of it was a lie

Sparkling angel in my eyes

please don’t let me die

these words all so deadly

wont let me fly

be free for me

but please dont every cry

in darkness

in light

i wont ever die

between you and I

your the reason why

these broken wings of mine

wont ever let me fly

sweet lullaby

you heard me cry

i felt so high

but when i fell through those clouds

you weren’t there to catch me

when i asked you to come back

you didn’t stop to chat

i just thought you were the one

everyone says there will come a day where i have to change

and i wont be coming back

but one day you’ll realize it and ask me to come home

ill just keep ridding on

sweet lullaby

tell him good bye

i wont look back

i wont get trapped

ill try and find a way to move on

till i under stand whats really going on.

this wasn’t meant to be

this isn’t how i use to be.

sparkling angel please save me

before its too late

take me away

from all the hate and the pain

i cant stay here

its time to move on

please say you’ll take me away.